This is my journal. For personal reasons I've recently decided to make all (or most) future entries Friends Only. There may be the occasional public post, but for the most part I've gone underground.
That doesn't mean I'm not accepting new friends. If you found me through a mutual friend, well, just drop a comment and I'll add you into the loop. But just to warn you.... I'm boring as hell!! :)
(I apologize if I've already shared this.)
I have NO idea what it has to do with chocolate, but I don't care. I love it and I want to marry it.
For those of you who wonder why I worry so much about finding a quality single man out there.... behind the cut is the most recent reply I got from OkCupid. I swear, if I didn't know any better, I'd think someone was trying to pull a Mrs Doubtfire on me (sending a shitload of "is this guy KIDDING??" responses, just to soften me up for a real one).
( Subject line: ooking to marrie soon to start a familyin mid 09 )
Bring it on down to Turkey-ville!!!!
Weighed in yesterday. I am down a grand total of 24.8 lbs.
This puts me in the next weight bracket. (By that I mean, for example, I was in the 140s and now I'm in the 130s. I'm not ACTUALLY at that weight... just using it for example's sake.)
It also puts me JUST past the halfway mark to my current goal. (The goal is a little flexible. I could certainly lose more once I'm there, but we'll see how I look/feel.)
Plus I'm right on target. According to one of the posters on the wall at the center, "Independent studies have shown that Jenny Craig members who attend 90 percent of their weekly consultations lose an average of 16 pounds in 10 weeks, 24 pounds in six months, and 30 pounds in a year." I started in May. I'm just about to hit the 6 month mark. Granted, I really feel like I should have lost MORE by now, but I've been slacking recently. I think I gained and lost the same 2 pounds all throughout September. But I'm back on track and in a losing trend again.
Down another 0.8 for a grand total of 22.8 lbs lost.
That is all. You may now return to your regular reading.
Soooooo tired. But just enough time to make one quick entry before getting undressed and getting to bed.
Weighed in again tonight. The grand total is now.................
At times, it doesn't seem like much. I guess because it's coming off slowly (which is a good thing, really). And other times, like this week..... it seems like a TON. As previously mentioned, I went shopping for new work pants and jeans earlier this week.... and I wore the new stuff when I came back to work starting Wednesday. No less than 5 different people at work have commented on my weight loss in the last three days (I could swear there were at least 2 others, but I can't remember who right now). Heck, even *I* have had to do a double-take in the bathroom mirror a few times. I didn't realize how HUGE and unflattering my old pants had become. I love the way these look on me now.
*happy dance*
I might be meeting a guy tomorrow. Not exactly a date really. He's working at a semi-local event tomorrow afternoon and he said I should stop by. It sounds like it could be fun, but Stacy has a work event, Dana has a 40th birthday party to attend, and Ann is busy with wedding plans.... so that means I'd be on my own. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing. But it would be nice to have someone else there with me so I don't feel so goofy.
He's 37, seems nice, and he's CUTE. *fingers crossed*
Since being back at work and wearing them, I've had several people notice how much weight I've lost. Glee!!!
Weigh-in tonight though. I was kind of bad the first half off vacation, but I think I recovered in the second half. I even got in some exercise too!!! *fingers crossed*
Took a little longer than I had planned. Between the dates I had gone on and general diet naughtiness, I kept losing and regaining the same 1 or 2 pounds for a couple of weeks.
But I am officially past the 20 pound mark. Now if I behave myself this week, I won't slip back into the teens again. *fingers crossed*
He has a VERY nice apartment. *evil grin*
Me likey him. Him likey me. *giggle*
*happy sigh*
Dudes. If I am EXCEEDINGLY good this week, I could hit the 20 pound mark by next weigh in.
Somehow it doesn't seem like that much now that I've lost it. My current weight is still a lot higher than I'd like. But my clothes are UBER-loose. I keep trying to hold off on buying anything new since I plan to continue losing.... but the jeans I'm wearing today are soooo baggy on me now. Perhaps I need to splurge a little this weekend and get a couple new things to get me through this "transition" period.
Happy! Happy! Joy! Joy!
He likes me. Said so more than once. Flattering. Especially because he's pretty damn cute. And smart. And funny. And a good kisser.... oop! I've said too much. :)
Details tomorrow when I come off of Cloud 9 (and when I'm not so tired). Nighters!!!
So far, I've lost a grand total of 15.8 pounds since early May.
Boo-fuckin-ya.
WHOOHOO!
I'm talking to guys. Making dates. Yadda yadda.
But I still dream about him. I still think about him. A million silly things still remind me of him and make me sad. (Today I saw the word "llama" and giggled to myself remembering how he'd pronouce both L's.... "la-lama"... just to make me laugh.)
If he was to call and say he missed me too......... I don't know. It's probably better that he hasn't.
But, I'm getting better. Slowly. Excruciatingly slowly. But little by little, I'm getting there.
Tiny businesses, or sometimes individuals, borrow money to allow them to expand. Sometimes it's giving them the ability to buy enough stock to keep a store open every day rather than closing when they run out. Sometimes it's a water pump to let them make bricks rather than carrying water up from the river in buckets.
These are very small changes that make great differences in the lives of people in third world countries.
The Website is http://www.kiva.org. Take a look. They take donations via Paypal or credit card.
Crud. I wanted to post a couple of example ads, but I can't seem to make it work. Well, here's some links to the loans instead.
Maota A Center - Group 2
Khaduji Abbas Hassan
Mary Nkrumah
I'm so thankful that I've been careful with my credit.
I went to get pre-approved for a mortgage this morning. I had no idea what to put for an amount, so I decided to be totally nuts and ask for $200,000. I figured I wouldn't get anything close to it, but they could counter-offer with whatever they WOULD give me.
They countered with $192,000.
Well, shit! :)
The places I've looked at online so far aren't nearly that high. And then between my savings and the money my parents are insisting on giving me (since they helped my brother and his wife buy their place) for a down payment, I'll need even less.
Sweeeeeeeeeeeeeet.
Now I just need to actually find a place I like and buy it. *gulp*
The plan is to shower, stop at the bank(s) to get pre-approved for a mortgage (to see how much I can afford), then get a pedicure, maybe do some shopping, then the doctor. A nice relaxing, no stress day.
Work has actually been GOOD lately. People are still annoying, but now they're also annoying Kathy now, so I don't feel like it's all me and my issues. These people really ARE pains in the ass. lol
But other than that, I'm actually getting shit done again. I've had a list of "special projects" that Kathy wants me to do for ages. Once in awhile I make a little progress on something, but I always seem to get pulled into something else before I can finish. But this month.... well, I'm kicking ASS. I've finished 4 projects this month alone. And three others are just waiting on final approval from other departments before I can call them complete. I am actually enjoying going to work lately.
Plus, I've also been spending every lunch hour for the last two weeks outside on the patio reading a book. The weather has been positively GORGEOUS, so I'm taking advantage. PLUS.... there's a cutie who comes out to smoke (ick, but I can get him to quit *wink*). I've seen him SO many times, but I've never talked to him. Heck, I still don't even know his name! LOL But we've smiled and said hello to each other during my lunch breaks, and it gives me giggly smilies. lol
Speaking of boys.... I might have a date! I met David on a new site, and he's REALLY cute, really funny, and seems sweet. He wants to take me out for
I also need to re-establish contact with a couple of guys I was talking to in March before I pulled back to take "some time for me". One especially. The cute, younger corrections officer. There's something about him I really liked.
Ugh. It's 9:00 already? Yipe! I gotta hit the shower. But I'm trying to watch last night's episode of Big Brother (since I missed it last night). Have I mentioned that my mother has gotten me addicted to reality shows since I've been here? Big Brother and Survivor. I haven't watched either show since the FIRST seasons.... and now I can't stop watching!!!
Ok kids. Back later! Toodles!!!
Ian was very nice, and very interested. He invited me to a Rangers game a few weeks ago but I couldn't go (plus it might have been a tough first date..... if things were awkward, there's no good exit strategy... you're stuck for the whole game).
Dan was also nice. A little younger, but CUTE. And a corrections officer. And seemed intelligent (he could actually write a coherent email... which I'm finding is rare). But we got close to the finally meeting stage and I backed off. I might try to reestablish contact with him though.... I kinda liked him.
Stu..... well, Stu seemed like a loser. I have zero interest, and yet he keeps text messaging me. I think he finally got the message that I'm not interested though.
I got a new email yesterday. He's 37. 6' 1". He's a cop in Westchester. Irish. Not bad looking. I'll have to email him and see where it goes.
But I don't know if I'm REALLY ready yet. I want to be, but something is holding me back a little.
Tom has been emailing me too. Some of you may remember Tom. I "dated" Tom a few times, years ago. Before Keith. To be honest, it was mostly physical. But goddam, it was HOT.
He's been in touch off and on since then. Even while Keith and I were together. He'd email me, or we'd talk on AOL via IM..... maybe every few months or so? He'd try to get me to meet him to hook up. Lemme tell ya, it was SOOOO tempting. I knew was I was missing, ya know? But as exciting as the idea was, I didn't want to cheat on Keith. The odds of him ever finding out were probably zero (as Tom kept reminding me... over and over and over).... but *I* would have known. And I loved Keith. If he had done that to me, I'd be devastated. I didn't want to risk my relationship for some wild encounter.
So, anyway, been talking to him again a little. I'm considering meeting up with him again. To be honest, he's not exactly relationship material.... at least not in my eyes. But a little hook up might be what I need to get my ass moving. Tom is cute, he knows what I like, and it's goooooooood. It might be the boost my self-esteem needs right now. Something casual, no strings attached.
I dunno. I suppose I should focus on finding someone who wants the same long term stuff I do. Then again, maybe Tom wants that stuff too. We never really got into it much.... we were too "busy". ;)
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